About

Welcome to my blog! Thanks so much for reading πŸ™‚ This blog is my rant space, Β it keeps me sane. I don’t sensor my material, or put trigger warnings on anything – because that would defeat the purpose of what I use it for. I really appreciate all of your lovely comments and such. But please feel free to not read on if any of it is triggering to you.

I struggle with PTSD, mood problems, and self harm primarily. I used to have a severe eating disorder, but I like to think that I am mostly recovered with that. (thank goodness). I also have Dysautonomia.. but thats a long story.

Ive been in hospital a lot and a lot of my blog posts will be about that. So if you are looking at what its like inpatient/ residential etc, Β here’s the place to be. Any questions, or need support – please email me at:

beneaththesmiles@gmail.com

Love,

Katie Stanton

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26 thoughts on “About”

  1. Hello, I just wanted to say that I also have POTS/Dysautonomia and I struggled with an eating disorder once too (bulimia). I know how you feel, and I know how complicated all those feelings are. I’m not exactly sure what to say…
    I guess eventually becoming sick with Dysautonomia slowly changed the way I looked at and felt about my body. I realized that I’m stuck in this body whether I like it or not, and my body is sick. Sometimes I still feel fat (especially when I’m bloated all the time from poor motility), sometimes I feel too skinny (I’ve lost weight due to GI problems, I’m bony and have no curves like a girl should). Sometimes I hate my skin, I hate my face, I hate my hair, I hate everything! But the truth is that my body is sick and my appearance is now the least of my concerns. I have to fight everyday to give my body the nutrition it needs to function properly, my diet impacts my daily symptoms even more than my meds do. If I don’t eat and drink enough I get sick (or sicker) and because I cannot possibly eat and drink enough (GI problems), I use a feeding tube overnight also, and that is where 1/2 of my calories come from. Years ago I would have freaked out at the thought of calories magically entering my body while I sleep, it would have been like some sort of nightmare. But my brain doesn’t think that way anymore, instead I’m grateful for my feeding tube, I know how sick and weak I would be without it. I’m not at war with my body anymore, my body and I are friends. I hope that I’m making sense, I hope that someday you won’t be at war with your body either. -Logan

  2. Thank you for following my blog. I am following you know praying you find health, happiness and self-acceptance.

  3. Hi Katie,
    Thanks for visiting my blog. I will be following you now, too. My youngest daughter has bouts of anxiety and has cut herself. I chuckled a bit when I read your post on talking with your mum!! Excuse her, while she loves you completely, it pains her that you, perhaps, are having trouble loving yourself completely. At least, that’s my struggle with my teen daughter. Of course, recognizing you have a problem is always half the solution. I will be cheering for you everyday now, Katie! Get out there! Enjoy the rain…feel the sun’s warmth! But, just a little at a time so you aren’t overwhelmed. We all have our issues, that’s for sure. Please know that even complete strangers are sympathetic…there’s a world out there that cares deeply about you.
    All the best! Nancy

  4. Hey Katie, thanks for dropping by and following my blog of mostly poetic writing. It presently covers a lot more struggling than in the past, but it is my important honest outlet. I hope you find the courage to let it all out here as well, you may be surprised how many people have similar experiences (I know I was). Take care. Push yourself for that little step of forwards progress every day, it’s really worth the effort.
    Peter

  5. Hiya, soo while I did comment on one of your posts, I wanted to officially thank you for following my teeny blog, so sweet of you! It means a lot. I blog mostly about music. I have this Q & A I do with unsigned musicians if you’re into that sorta thing. And I very recently decided to create another side project: The Wayside. Which is basically me talking about depression, anxiety, struggled with self-harm, suicide.. etc. But it’s mostly to give people who struggle with those encouragement. πŸ™‚

    1. Hey πŸ™‚ Thanks for following me too! Sure, I wouldn’t mind doing some QA’s for you πŸ™‚ I dont do too much music these days though. Mostly just singing round the house. But I could probably do with some inspiration to get more involved!
      I think your project the wayside sounds really great, its awesome that you want to help other people and get the message out there!

  6. It takes honesty, inner strength and courage to write like you do…I’m impressed by the way you are and I know it will be light on your way, after all the struggles you’ve been trough. The beauty in you will shine trough and, at least here, but also in every day life, you’ll have the chance to touch hearts and to change lives. You touched my heart with your writings, with your story and you won my admiration…simply for being yourself.
    Thank you for following my blog, I feel blessed to be here, reading yours.
    Sending you my warmest wishes of joy,
    Carissa

    1. Oh wow I am feeling very flattered right now! I can’t believe someone would take such an interest in me or my blog! Thank you SO much, you made my day!
      I love your blog, your writing is MUCH more amazing than mine. Xx

  7. Thank you for liking my post and following me. It saddens me to read about what you are going through and it reminds me of what I went through. Hope my writings help you. Remember that the way we feel or in fact our abilities and mental capabilities depend on the balance of biochemicals we have in our system called neurotransmitters. The ones we receive from the sun are the ones that help to keep us call and handle life’s ups and down and they control the feeling we have about ourselves.
    It is important that you take the first step of going for daily walks. Walk as much as you can. Also sit outside under the shade and read. You will find yourself gradually calming down everything you are outside.
    The body self repairs gradually. That is because we grow gradually and all the parts and components of the biochemical and nerve network depleted and or damaged when you were very sick will have to be repaired by the body.
    Everything we see physically is a result of complicated system operating in the unseen background of our being and take time to repair. Just take each day at a time, watch your diet. You need certain foods in your diet to help you. You also need certain exercises and so on.
    I was healed only by divine intervention, which is why I am now sharing my knowledge with everyone in every way I can.
    You many want to visit my website I mentioned in my blog (http://www.foodsthathealdaily.com/) and do contact me with any questions you have. I will be happy to assist with insight you can share with your doctors to assist them in treating you.
    I hope you have many people in your life to give you moral support and listen to you. It is important you have people to talk to.
    Anyway this comment is already too long. As I said do contact me with your questions. I am here to help.

  8. Katie,

    Thank you for following “A Way With Words.” My joy in writing is made more complete when people read what I’ve written, and even more as they respond.

    I write mainly on faith and mental illness, but am known to dabble in other subjects, stories, and the occasional poem. If you have any particular requests, please contact me.

    I appreciate how you are sharing your story here. I pray you are blessed in your writing and life, as you are a blessing to others.

    Gratefully,
    Tony

    1. Tony, thank you so much! I really appreciate your kind words! Its really interesting for me to find another blog that talks about faith and mental health together, because a lot of people believe that the two do not go together, or that if you have faith , then you will be mentally well – which is not the case at all (unfortunately). Its the same as any other physical illness. I look forward to reading more of your blog πŸ™‚

  9. Hi Katie. Thank you for visiting my little space and following. You may understand done of which I write – I write in metaphor but translated is – depression, self harm and bulimia.

    I do hope you find peace in some way or another. It is a process. I still am. Trying. Kimberly. xxx

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