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10 ways to tell if you are allergic to gravity!

Today is a POTSie day

You are probably thinking – What on earth is POTSie? Well, fair question. It’s a bit of a slang term commonly used by those of us lucky enough to be allergic to gravity – or standing up! POTS – aka Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome is a chronic autonomic condition that I have to fight everyday. 

So, here’s 10 ways to tell if you are allergic to gravity:

  1. You feel like you have been running a marathon all day. All day yesterday too. And the day before that…tired
  2. You randomly feel the need to sit down in the middle of the supermarket, on the street,or anywhere else for that matter (insert embarrassing place here)
  3. You have a love hate relationship with exercise… well, mostly hate. Lets be honest people. After 2 minutes, this is you:

gym

 

  4.  You need to drink an entire swimming pool a day to even vaguely survive!

  5.  Salty food is your best friend, and you regularly get disapproving looks from others when salting your food…

  6.  Sometimes you feel like this man here:

pill man

  7. The floor is your best friend:

fall

  8. Sleep is your second best friend… when you can catch him

sleep

 

  9. Your heart rate could be likened to the speed of a Springbok

springbok

  10. You’re not a quitter!!

 

Keep hanging in there my fellow POTsies!!

(I was sitting here feeling pretty yuk, so I thought I would pop on my heart rate monitor. Aaaaand sure enough, my heart rate is being screwy! 100 sitting… 150 standing sigh.)

 

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An Important Mental Health Turning Point For All!

Girl Interrupted – What a fabulous movie!

girl interrupted

I found myself relating quite a bit to it actually. And then there was the comparing – comparing it to my experiences of the psych wards I’ve been in. I also noticed that I had quite a bit of stereotypical thinking about it all. Well, before I watched it anyway. 

I had in my mind that a mental hospital back in the 60’s would be horrific and dark, with poor staffing, and unfair treatments, lobotomies and shock therapies (I know ECT is still used these days with good results… but i was thinking the less ethical and humane kind). But to my surprise, it was more similar to my experiences than I had thought. It seemed to be a cross between my residential treatment at a private psych hospital, and the acute mental health units I’ve been in.

In this movie, the main character Suzanna ends up acting crazier than she was at the beginning just because she was already classed as crazy, and locked in with a whole lot of other crazies. I could totally relate to this… the reasoning goes something like this – ‘I’m already stuck under the crazy basket, being my normal self or trying to be normal isn’t getting me outta here, so I might as well let it all loose. be as crazy as I want to’. 

turning point

That my friends is a very important turning point for anyone in a psychiatric hospital. That point can go one of two ways:

  1. You become highly institutionalised, live up to your disorder, get sicker, and more dependent on the hospital system to regulate your emotions. Aka, you become crazier. Now this is easy to do, because usually, just prior to this point, you are at the I really really wanna get outta here stage. When you realise that actually that’s not in your control, and they are going to hold you there whether you like it or not – your reaction is well screw you! You say im crazy? Im gonna be REALLY crazy, that will teach you! 
  2. The other option of course though, Is to work the system, and actually do what they want you to do – which is essentially get healthy. So you work like mad to check all the boxes until they are satisfied, and you get out of there.

Now obviously, the second choice sounds like the much more reasonable course of action. But, it also depends on what the philosophy of the hospital is, and whether succumbing to that will actually be good for you or not.

The private hospital I went to was like a cult, and they just inserted negative thinking into your mind, and went completely against modern medical standards of treating mental health. Infact, there is a facebook support group for people who have left this place more damaged than they went in, and the amount of people who are in this situation because of this place is sickening!

conform

Basically they worked off a ‘shame based therapy’ model – so they make you feel SOOOO bad about yourself and your “bad behavior” that you would eventually try to be as good as possible and follow by their rules so that you didn’t get hurt. Its not just me who feels this way about what they do to you there, theres LOADS. 

So anyway, If you are an inpatient in hospital, and feel like you might reach this point, please please please think long and hard about where to from here. Even if the hospital you are at was like mine, I still recommend just trying to be good to get out of there and then finding some different form of help. Or do the work (if its a good place) and fully get better. Because the other option? Its only going to lead to wasting years and years of your life being the sick person who spends the majority of their time in hospitals. You may even end up in prison. And you WILL regret wasting that time. 

regrets

Anyway, I’m all drugged up and probably won’t make much sense if I continue writing, so I will see you all tomorrow!!

wpid-20140826_222126.jpg I feel like I have far too much medication sometimes… this is just my evening stuff!